I want to apologize to those that do read that I havent written much this week and to be honest I probably wont going forward. This week is INSANE! I am going up to my cottage on the weekend and will be able to concentrate more on writing throughout my stay there.
My last baseball game was last night. Work is insane. So much going on! Not to mention I volunteered to do a newsletter for my church this week and it needs to be in for print by Friday and I havent even started! AH! Ill be back with more frequent blogs soon guys, promise!
Weigh in tonight - wish me luck!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Cottage Life...
Sitting here with an amazing view, wishing I could stay here forever...
Oh the cottage life, there is nothing like it. Nothing more beautiful, nothing more relaxing. But part of me cannot help to think about the fact that the summer is coming to an end and then of course fall begins, which isn't so bad itself. The part I seem to dread more and more every year is winter. When I was younger I didn't seem to mind it so much, but as I get older, with more responsibilities, my dislike for it increases significantly.
I am trying my best to soak it all in and enjoy this lovely experience while it's here. I must remember that it will be back next year for me to enjoy once again with my loved ones.
Oh the cottage life, there is nothing like it. Nothing more beautiful, nothing more relaxing. But part of me cannot help to think about the fact that the summer is coming to an end and then of course fall begins, which isn't so bad itself. The part I seem to dread more and more every year is winter. When I was younger I didn't seem to mind it so much, but as I get older, with more responsibilities, my dislike for it increases significantly.
I am trying my best to soak it all in and enjoy this lovely experience while it's here. I must remember that it will be back next year for me to enjoy once again with my loved ones.
Location:Tobermory, Ontario
Friday, August 26, 2011
Making Fitness A Priority...
I am very proud of myself. A very rare thing happened this morning. I set my alarm an hour earlier than I normally get up because I knew I had a lot to do this morning. My mother in law and step-father in law were meeting us at our house and then we were all going to travel up to my parent's cottage for the weekend. I knew that I had some work to do and a conference call around 8 am, not to mention packing, cleaning, laundry and all the normal stuff I do in the mornings. But then I thought where am I going to fit in my Friday workout? I woke up another hour prior to when my alarm was supposed to be going off and I thought to myself "I could get another hour of sleep, OR I could get up now and have a little more time to do stuff and not feel so rushed."
That's right I got up two hours earlier than I normally would and worked my little butt off < (one part of me that actually isn't all that large haha) I did the TJ Fat Blaster again, which is a very intense 30 min interval workout and I gurantee buckets of sweat when you are done! AMAZING!
I never in a million years would be the one to put fitness first. Even last year when I was all over working out and I did make it a priority, I never put it first. I started my day off well and guranteed it is going to be a LOT less stressful of a morning now that I have. I feel great!
That's right I got up two hours earlier than I normally would and worked my little butt off < (one part of me that actually isn't all that large haha) I did the TJ Fat Blaster again, which is a very intense 30 min interval workout and I gurantee buckets of sweat when you are done! AMAZING!
I never in a million years would be the one to put fitness first. Even last year when I was all over working out and I did make it a priority, I never put it first. I started my day off well and guranteed it is going to be a LOT less stressful of a morning now that I have. I feel great!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Is it in my head...
Something I find totally weird is that I look in the mirror and I see a much smaller person than I used to see only a month ago. Don't get me wrong, I have my "fat days", but dont we all? You may ask why I find this weird? Well I am a larger woman with a lot of weight to lose, in fact my goal is 120lbs. I am only slightly into my journey and have lost about 21lbs now. I am sure 21lbs still shows even on someone as large as myself, but it isnt AS noticeable on someone that is smaller to begin with, obviously. I also dont rely 100% on the scale. I measure myself too and I have lost some inches, but not a substantial amount. I must add that this is NOT be being hard on myself, this is me trying to make a point. I am very happy and proud with my progress thus far. Anywho, I look in the mirror and I feel like I have lost nearly 50lbs, I feel better, I look better, mind you I still have a huge tummy on me, but it even looks smaller, but the person I look at in the mirror does not match the progress on the scale and measuring tape. So then one would say "how are your clothes fitting?" and to answer that, they are fitting better than a month ago, BUT they are not matching up to the person I see in the mirror either.
This is completely different from how I used to look at myself in the mirror. I would avoid it all the time, which I still do when I am naked ;) But I find myself checking my body out more and more frequently now. Even when I was at this weight last year I wouldnt be seen looking in the mirror/window at my body with a smile or grin on myself. It just wouldnt happen.
What do you think has made the difference this time? Is it because my mind and heart are in a different place now than they have ever been? That's got to be it, right? Because that is the only thing that has changed significantly. I would love some thoughts and feedback on this. Anyone else find themselves in a situation like this or am I the only weirdo? ;)
This is completely different from how I used to look at myself in the mirror. I would avoid it all the time, which I still do when I am naked ;) But I find myself checking my body out more and more frequently now. Even when I was at this weight last year I wouldnt be seen looking in the mirror/window at my body with a smile or grin on myself. It just wouldnt happen.
What do you think has made the difference this time? Is it because my mind and heart are in a different place now than they have ever been? That's got to be it, right? Because that is the only thing that has changed significantly. I would love some thoughts and feedback on this. Anyone else find themselves in a situation like this or am I the only weirdo? ;)
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Self Help...
Thinking tonight about books and the type of book I have either tried to or succeeded in finishing made me wonder why I always turn to the same type of book. I realized tonight that I go for all these self help books, books that promise me something other than a good read or a good ol' read. I always find myself grabbing for the book that will make me thin; the book that will make me healthy; the book that will help me spiritually; but in all honesty a simple book is NOT going to help me with that. It won't make me better. I do understand that these books have great information within them and they may be a good read for some, but simply not for me... Not anymore! I am going to stay true to the books that I have enjoyed in the past and although they may be frowned upon, or I may be laughed at, I am ok with that because I enjoy them and that is ALL that matters. Love stories, vampires, war stories, here I come!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Big Wreck and Godsmack All In One Weekend...
This weekend I went to the Cornfest in Jarvis, Ontario. It is a festival that has everything from vendors selling crafts to rides and live bands. I had a great time there on Friday walking around and looking at all the different booths, but Saturday was when the real fun began. Big Wreck (Thornley) played there on Saturday night and I believe this was my 5th or 6th time seeing them live. They put on a kick ass show and Saturday wasn't any different.
On Sunday night the hubby and I had tickets to see Godsmack in Hamilton, Ontario with a bunch of friends. It too was a great show, but I think I am getting too old for the hardcore rock shows. I know, I am only 26, but damn it is getting hard to continue going to these shows. It is true, there is nothing like that feeling you get when a band you enjoy gets up on stage, the music louder than expect, the crowd for wild. It is an amazing feeling, but at the same time I am finding more and more other people like to ruin it for you. You get those ignorant douche bags that decide to drink way too much and somehow bring you down by spilling something on you, kicking you, shoving you, spitting on you, whatever it may be. I am just way too old for that shit! Now don't get me wrong, if a band comes to town who I thoroughly enjoy and just so happen to have not seen live, the chances are I will be going. Bands like Aerosmith that I have been dieing to see, but haven't had the chance - I will be there. But if I have already seen a band I am not certain I will be attending anymore. Overall Godsmack was a great experience and of course a rockin' show.
On Sunday night the hubby and I had tickets to see Godsmack in Hamilton, Ontario with a bunch of friends. It too was a great show, but I think I am getting too old for the hardcore rock shows. I know, I am only 26, but damn it is getting hard to continue going to these shows. It is true, there is nothing like that feeling you get when a band you enjoy gets up on stage, the music louder than expect, the crowd for wild. It is an amazing feeling, but at the same time I am finding more and more other people like to ruin it for you. You get those ignorant douche bags that decide to drink way too much and somehow bring you down by spilling something on you, kicking you, shoving you, spitting on you, whatever it may be. I am just way too old for that shit! Now don't get me wrong, if a band comes to town who I thoroughly enjoy and just so happen to have not seen live, the chances are I will be going. Bands like Aerosmith that I have been dieing to see, but haven't had the chance - I will be there. But if I have already seen a band I am not certain I will be attending anymore. Overall Godsmack was a great experience and of course a rockin' show.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Is it me?
I just had a really powerful, heated, and venting conversation about friendships, trust and acceptance.
It started with me thinking about the fact that all my life, through all the stages where you develop important relationships, I never had a whole lot of friends. I had acquaintances and people I would hang out with, but when it came down to it those people wouldn't be there if I really needed them. I suppose I have always taken friendship really seriously and cherished the very few that I could trust with my life, unlike the many out there that assume everyone is your best friend and they only end up hurting you.
I look back to High school and I wonder why I didn't have more friends. Don't get me wrong, I got along with mostly everyone, but I had only a few very close friends. Then there were that group of girls who were always so high on themselves and no one else was good enough for them, or at least that was my perspective of it. I think back now, "why wasn't I good enough"? I personally believe I have (and had) a great personality so therefore I naturally wonder "was it because of my weight? Could these people be so cruel and so judgmental to not even give me the time of day because I was fat?" I cannot possibly think of any other reason why I haven't been able to develop and hold onto friendships more so than I have been able to. I have always felt like I've been on a different level than most from a maturity standpoint so maybe I push others away? Maybe I am the one that is too judgmental or walked around with a "too good" attitude without even noticing it?
I look at it like this.. I have a lot to offer and I believe that friendships are important and something to be cherished. They don't just come around every day and when that true friendship does develop, I have and will hold on to it tight because it is something very rare in this world today.
It started with me thinking about the fact that all my life, through all the stages where you develop important relationships, I never had a whole lot of friends. I had acquaintances and people I would hang out with, but when it came down to it those people wouldn't be there if I really needed them. I suppose I have always taken friendship really seriously and cherished the very few that I could trust with my life, unlike the many out there that assume everyone is your best friend and they only end up hurting you.
I look back to High school and I wonder why I didn't have more friends. Don't get me wrong, I got along with mostly everyone, but I had only a few very close friends. Then there were that group of girls who were always so high on themselves and no one else was good enough for them, or at least that was my perspective of it. I think back now, "why wasn't I good enough"? I personally believe I have (and had) a great personality so therefore I naturally wonder "was it because of my weight? Could these people be so cruel and so judgmental to not even give me the time of day because I was fat?" I cannot possibly think of any other reason why I haven't been able to develop and hold onto friendships more so than I have been able to. I have always felt like I've been on a different level than most from a maturity standpoint so maybe I push others away? Maybe I am the one that is too judgmental or walked around with a "too good" attitude without even noticing it?
I look at it like this.. I have a lot to offer and I believe that friendships are important and something to be cherished. They don't just come around every day and when that true friendship does develop, I have and will hold on to it tight because it is something very rare in this world today.
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